One of those Days...

So, I'm having one of those days & it just hit me about 30 minutes ago. Ugh :/

The beginning of today was not bad at all but its like the day took a complete 180 flip and now I feel so sucky & lonely. I hate this feeling.  And I don't know how to shake myself out of this one either, so not cool. 

To start from the beginning of  today :

I woke up really early today, felt extremely rested and so ready to start the day. I knew that I needed to get up and get going early because I had a lot of job hunting to do today. So, I got up right away and showered and got myself ready for the day. It took about an hour and I danced around and  sang while I got ready. I was in a great mood, despite being here at home alone for another two weeks, I felt great when I woke up today. 

After I was all ready & I ate a yummy breakfast of oatmeal and a glass of milk, I packed my computer and school work and headed over to the mall to get applications. 

I made a quick pit stop at the rental office of my apartment complex before I left though, I needed to ask about splitting the rent payment and he was SO nice about it and I'm SO happy that he said it was okay to do! 

Makes our life & finances a bit easier to deal with for the next couple months! 

After leaving the rental office, with the sun bright as ever and the temperature in the 80's I started my journey over to the mall. 

First stop : Rite Aid, located right outside the mall. I picked up and application from there and headed over to go inside the mall to get more.

I walked around to a toooon of stores.

I got applications from, Victoria's Secret, Barnes & Noble, Rue 21, Claires, Ulta, and Bath & Body Works. 

After I rounded up all the applications I could get I headed over to the Cafe inside Barnes & Noble and filled out each of the applications. It took me about an hour to fill everything out completely. 

After each application was done, I took them all back to the stores so that I wouldn't have to come back later in the week to return them, and I figured it would open up my opportunities to get a job if I returned it the same day I got it. 

Now that all of my work at the mall was done, I was originally going to sit and write some more of my story in the Cafe BUT the Internet was so spotty so I decided to just come home instead. 

Once I made it home, and got everything situated, I logged onto my Virtual Campus and saw that one of my grades were posted from last week.. another 100%! I was so happy! 

It was a great feeling. 

I was going to attempt to take a nap after that but I decided that I was going to try and put my extensions in my hair because I am so annoyed with it being short. 

So I did, and I loved it. 

My mood was instantly increased when my long hair was back. 

Then I called my mom, had a little chat about this and that and after we hung up I started making dinner.

Spaghetti & Broccoli. Yum. 

And now, this is where I am at now. All of a sudden just in a sad mood and feeling so down about everything. My husband is gone for another two weeks...

but I JUST got him back 5 months ago.

That was not enough time for me to have him home, and now he's gone again? 

So not fair. 

I know, I know, I'm a Marine wife.. I need to get used to it. And believe me, I can handle things and myself on my own. This relationship taught me how to do that. But I just got used to having him here with me, every single day, and he already had to leave again? 

Ugh.

I know it's only for two weeks & he only went to NYC but uhm, I still miss him like crazy and considering I haven't heard from him since Saturday..

I feel like it's last summer all over again. 

I sit & stare at my phone.

Every time it goes off I wish it's going to be him, but it never is. 

All I do is think about him.

Being in our house, that we made together, is making me miss him more.

Everything reminds me of him. 

His smell, clothes, shoes, everything is all over this house. 

I feel so weak right now. I know that there are girls out there that are going through a Deployment and ones who haven't seen their husbands/fiances/boyfriends for a longer period then I have, but I know how they feel too. 

I just went through a deployment myself. 

He just came home, Christmas Day.

Shouldn't I be able to deal with this, especially considering it's only a fraction of the time that he was gone before?.. 

But, nope. Not me. Not at all.

I feel weak, and alone.

I hate it. 

I just want him to come home, now. 

Is that too much to ask? 

Anyone else dealing with feelings like this? 

What do you do to cope with them and make them go away? 

Leave a comment & let me know! 

xoxo mrs. krys