The Struggle is Part of the Story: My day today.. CRAZY.

So today has been one eventful day for sure! I had to deal with a lot of stress from financial aid from my school, but I got all that figured out.. than I decided to upgrade my phone and get a new one and dropped 200 dollars on it -_-.. but so far it seems SO worth it and I love the phone! And I got a phone call from my Marine and had a long talk with him about a lot of stuff that needed to be talked about. It felt good getting it all off my chest and telling him how I felt about it and hearing what he had to say about it all too!
So first off.. School = Stressful and it hasent even started yet! ahhhh.
Well with financial aid there is always more and more paper work that has to be filed out and it is NEVER done.. EVER.. there is always more, even if you think that you have everything done... nope there's always more. -_-
It's so stressful! ahhhhhhhhhhhh!

Now onto point #2.. my NEW PHONE! ahhhh! I just LOVE it soo much and I'm so glad I got it! Granted, I've only had it for like 3 hours.. but I just love it soooo much! :) It's the HTC Rhyme, and it's all touch screen (which I was nervous about) but I just love it and it was so worth spending the money on a quality phone! And it's purple too! So it's fun and girly :)

that's it ^.. just beautiful :)

And now, point #3.. the talk with Adam.

Well first off it was AMAZING to hear his voice and I loved our conversation. We had a bunch to talk about and alot of it had to do with a friend of mine. Well he's also an ex boyfriend, we broke up about 2 1/2 years ago and have been good friends for a while. We were good friends before I met Adam. It's hard for Adam to accept that Richie and I are friends, and I understand why.. we dated before and I know it has to be uncomfortable for Adam to deal with. So I wanted to talk to him about why I am so close with Richie and why it is hard for me to not have him as a friend. I dont want to go into much detail about it because it is very personal, but basically Richie helped me at a point in my life when I really needed it. Before I was with him I was in a very abusive relationship and Rich was there for me throughout it and afterwards and helped me realize that all guys are not like that. And he helped me feel comfortable with a guy again and feel okay to open up to another guy. Richie is the only person who knows EVERYTHING about that previous relationship so it is exteremly hard for me to not have him in my life. Adam still doesn't even know all the details, (I plan on talking to him about it in person when he is home, he knows most just not everything), but right now to this day I am still scared at times about seeing that person I was with and its something that i have to live with for the rest of my life. And being home with Adam a million miles away and unable to have him here if I need him.. being friends and close with Richie makes me feel safe. It makes me feel okay and I know that if anything were to happen Rich would be there for me and it's hard for me to let go of that. DON'T get me wrong I am 12596536165% in love with Adam and he is the one that I want to be with for the rest of my life and being friends with Richie doesn't effect that. And I wanted Adam to know that so he could understand my thought process with that. And I'm sure half of this didn't make sense but I hope you were able to keep up and I hope what I was saying makes sense! :)

But hearing Adam's voice was amazing and I cant wait until my cuddle buddy is home! <3