"All the words unspoken, promises broken.. I cried for so long".

Sometimes in life things happen and there is nothing you can do about it.

Nothing you can do to take away the pain.

Nothing you can do to make things better.

Nothing, just nothing you can do. 

 There was recently something that happened that made me feel this way. 

You may have heard about the Marines who were killed by an explosion in Hawthorne, NV, 

well, my husband was there.

He was right there. 

But he came home.

He came home & I couldn't be anymore happy about that.

But how is that fair?

How is it fair that there were precious lives lost that day.

How is it fair that there are families who will forever mourn their loss.

How is it fair that such young, talented, men were taken.

I may have gotten my husband back.

I may be extremely happy that he is home & okay.

But I will never forget what happened,

Or the precious lives lost. 

"But you went away, how dare you.

I miss you..

They say I'll be okay, 

but I'm not going to ever get over you."

RIP boys, Fly High Marines

1/9 

I guess this post was just a way for me to get out my emotions and feeling about that day. I've never been more scared in my life then I was that day. I had heard about the explosion from a friend while I was at school & all I could think about was how I had not heard from Adam yet that morning and instant fear took over my body. You never really know how strong you are until being strong is your only option. I've heard that quote many times before & it didn't mean anything to me until that day. I've never really thought of myself as a strong person.. I just do what I need to do and deal with what needs to be dealt with. But after that day I've decided that I will never give myself less credit then what I deserve. I am a strong person & I will never forget that. 

Having my husband home now, especially after what happened, feels like a dream come true everyday. Sometimes I just sit and I think about that horrible day & how I thought my life was going to change forever.. and in some ways I was right because my life has changed. I've learned how to appreciate things more, how to live more for the moment and to quit worrying so much about things that cant be changed. I've learned to appreciate my husband and the things that he does way more then I did before. 

Life is short. Live it like its your last day. Embrace the positive, let go of the negative. And simply, be happy. 

Sorry for the un-organized rambling but I'll be posting more often now & this was just me getting back into the reigns. :) 

xoxo

krystle